Maybe agnosticism would better fit you. I also think that an infinite God would be impossible to understand. But the idea of an infinite God seems preposterous.
My bias is obvious here. But — as with most things — a healthy dose of skepticism is acceptable.
Wesleyanism vs. Systematic theology.
I actually agree more with the Reformed circles, as you have probably deciphered. Free Will does not seem to be an option in the Bible. Recent research neuroscientists have done also suggests that we have little control over our actions. It is still a relatively new area of study, though, we’ll see how it turns out.