I Have Just Finished Reading My 400th Book — I Still Feel Unsure

Doubt is an unpleasant condition but certainty is absurd. — Voltaire

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I didn’t always like to read.

Deep down I prefer being lazy, honestly. Or at least I think I do. Watching Netflix rather than reading Chomsky, is much more enjoyable for most people — believe it or not.

For some reason, however, I find the feeling of not knowing unbearable. Eventually, I became so curious that I started researching my own book topic on Christianity, Atheism, and the global problems of the 21st century, or at least what I think they are.

It took me 2 years to research the book and approximately 5 months to write and self-publish! I write about the writing process in one of my blog posts.

But let me start with why reading and writing so much did not get rid of my self-doubt even though I thought it would.

My LSD Trip

When I took LSD a number of times, it really helped me understand the infallibility of human knowledge and experience. My LSD trips were a journey through 9-hour windows of intense skepticism about everything around me.

Words became irrelevant. Conversations were complicated.